Naam Me Kya Rakha Hai?

6 months  Standing on your door, It's been 6 months to me,  And in those 6 short months Ive looked at changing weather,  People, time and moments, But not me.  I've looked at that tree in front of your house,  Shedding its leaves for my misery,  Youve been deaf to the songs those birds have crooned for me.  You've bothered me unknowingly with the little that you gave, Oh my, I still remember the feeling of kissing your face,  You've forgotten the bold stories I told you with no regrets,  Or the trust I had on you than the rest,  Or it was a dream, a dream that I'm going to live for a lifetime,  With a tear of mixed feelings in my eyes.  Those creaking sound of your door  Or that fragrance on you,  I've kept like a rose petal in between pages of a book, They are hard earned memories, I've kept them safe.  No matter what you say, every drop of love I've spent on you is not a waste.  Remember the first coffee we

Kuch vida kar,  Kuch gale Laga, Beti ki yaado ko, Zara tolkr dekh  Dil Bhar aayega.  Kuch shukr mana Kuch aafat samjh  Dekh uss sindoor ki taraf  Tere Naam joh saji hai  Maang uski Teri umr hai  Zara jaankr dekh Dil Bhar aayega  Narm haatho ko chu  Chumb unn lakeero ko  Teri izzat, Tera vansh  Tere khwab ko  Tere pariwar ke khwabo ko  Apne paro me sanjhoye  Udegi par apni raftaar se Zara chot mein bhi haste Tere beti ke labo ko dekh Dil bhar aayega Uss Aanchal me chupe daag ko,  Kuch chupaaye hue dard, sikaayate, pyar ko,  Saree ke border ne usko toh baandha,  Tujhe udaan di,  Uss maa ke pallu ke silvato me chupe unn ankahe tyaag ko dekh  Dil Bhar aayega.  Choti si chocolate,  Badi si cycle,  Apni salary se tera phone, Tere girlfriend ki maange, Tere rishte naye puraane, Tere galtiyo par parda Yun toh beparwah par Tere liye hai parwah,  Uss Behen ki har choti baato ko yaad kar Dil Bhar aayega Kuch nahi,

Unexpected number 10  It's funny how we strive to get love from someone but can never really appreciate when we have it around. Kalpana did have someone who loved her like crazy for six damn years but she could never fit him in the frame of a partner but a best friend.  On the contrary, she kept falling for all sort of guys who found reasons but not to stay to leave. Some were months long and few years.  As far as I could remember, the last thing she could or wanted to do was to break someone's heart. In beginning of her 'teenage' she would say yes to everyone who expressed their love to her. But as soon as they started, they would end too.  Kalpana was a person who followed the saying- ignorance is bliss. Not that she wanted to ignore things around but for her, except people who were close to her, no one really mattered.  She was one naive girl whose childhood was not a bliss for her and adulthood, well that was too adult.  She was dumped man

I know the reason of those walls around your heart,  I know you want to be healed but I ain't the one,  But only for you to know, I hate her, who scratched your divine heart with her paws,  Trust me, it was entirely her loss.  Only if your walls had a little crack to let the air pass,  You would have found me trying too hard,  Too hard to let you out of the pain of past,  to experience what I have to offer, for everything that you were never given before,  for everything that you deserve Only if you knew I was there to heal you,  from the scratches on your heart,  From the ashes of your past, From the fact that you cannot love,  Or the fact that you can't love You could have given a chance to me,  To show you how my love can be,  How passionate I am for you, How my world can encompass everything that you ever imagined with her,  If you could have seen, you would have watched your own shadow in me.  I've loved you strong enoug

One day I will move on,  Move on from the fact that you said I had the most magical smile,  The infectious kiss,  Fragrance that never fades, Glow to remember  And love like of life time,  But still you left out of the door,  One day I will move on, Move on from the fact that you said one who leaves me is stupid, That one who fails to know me is unlucky  That one who thinks too much beyond my word is shallow  That the one who has me is rich  But you still left out of the door  One day I will move on, Move on from the fact that you had said that no one has loved you like I did, That no one said you look like an angel fallen on earth and even after all that you've done to me, you are someone I'll never want to lose,  From the fact that you never accepted us,  Accepted me And my love From the fact that I never wanted to put you in the bracket where my exes fall but apparently you entered it.  You never wanted to be a number but yo

Little fingers, small palm little pony and little back-pack  White dress, blue belt, black shoes.  Everything has become a phase of time, I am a grown up adult now Forgotten everything about my childhood  But stuck at a point I revisit in the morning every day when I look at this small girl  Small feet with tidy shoes on, walks out of the house, Dressed in white, blue belt,  and yeah, a little back-pack.  Calls her dad to drop her school and here comes a man with specs, wearing a polo shirt and track pants, holds her hand and walks with her till a point where comes the school van.  It's not just a walk,  It's a moment of emotion, A moment where she could spit everything and he patiently hears it all. A moment of love, a relationship which wasn't hazy.  5 days of the week, I look at them, smile and leave for my work.  Every Saturday I imagine how their life would be:  The little one wakes up and find her father next to her bed,  H

Khata hi dua hai ki khafa Tum na ho na  Ki manzile dushman se bhari hongi  Adaye tumhari nazaakat se dikhana ki banduke phool barsayenge  Zara unhe bhi pata ho ki mere yaar ki nazar ka Kya hai Woh nasha joh mujhpe hai Zara payal chankao ki kabr se bhi murde haazir honge humare ishq ko bachane ko  Ye dushman Kya karpayegein jab mere yaar ke teere nazar hi dilo pe vaar krjayenge  Talwaar uthayenge toh zulfein lehra dena  Ghataye chaakr toofan le aayengii  Andhere me na wo tujhe na Mujhe Dekh payenge  Mere pyar ke haatho Woh pyar se marjayenge  Alag ho bhi gaye agar hum, Toh wafayein Meri yaad rakhna  Anguthi tere ungli pe joh hai usse tassali se pyar krna  Wo pyar mere dil tak pohuch hi jayegi  Na fikr kar tu Meri Mujhe apne paas hi paayegi  Hawa bankr aaunga choomne tere labo ko  Mera pyar iss zamaane Ya umr ka mohtaaz nahi

Do you know how it is to be felt unwanted while being naked next to you? Your hands move but your soul doesn't Your eyes meet mine but they don't makes love  Our body touches and what happens in my body nothing of such sorts happen to you  It's only me who is making love to you I have been naked always for you    Told you thousand stories  And a lie that it doesn't matter if you go  But it does and it's the most difficult step I have taken.  It's nothing like the breakups I have had before,  It's not the relationship but me who broke.  No one has fallen for me  Sadly even you didn't  I experienced the pain love gives  But love? I don't have it.   You shook my soul  And toured it to hell and heaven  Now brought me back to dark space  Which has nothing  but only your sense over my sense  Your breath in mine  Your thoughts all over my mind  Your touch that denies to go away  I can feel my personality ta

I never failed to have hope on you,  Even when you closed that door on me. I never failed to trust you, Even when you said we are not meant to be. I never broke even when my heart felt like it won't beat again  I never cursed because I knew I was the one to be blamed  You were not ready, I wasn't too I know it wasn't easy, I walked a little farther than you did My imaginations took a flight  Pressured you, unintentionally to feel the way I did  But I never knew I was doing this  you knew it all, still you took the risk.  You walked closer,  Closer to my heart  You held my breath and a chemistry happen to start  I never told you that you gave me love like no one else could  Never told you in little things you did, I found a world  My bubble became a happy place to live in But you didn't believe. Things drifted towards the end slowly, I still lived there where you left me Dont worry, I shall be fine with time  Y

Make my thoughts blank for a while Kiss me like its end of life Close the doors and hug me tight Let the dark take over, turn off the light. Don't stay away, Don't be so shy See me glowing in your arms Kiss me till end of my life Get uncovered, throw your shield Look into my eyes, believe in me Let me touch you, you touch me Keep your eyes stuck on me Touch me, for I want to feel What's it's like when you make love to me It hurts to see you so close but so far I am desperate for you, a state that's sweet and sour How can you see me in such a plight Kiss me like its end of life Enough of being away, Your touch burns my blood A current passes through veins Let's warm that bed Let's create creases And a story to tell I am breaking in your arms, how can you not shudder Just wanting a touch of your lips on mine Kiss me like its end of my life I feel helpless and bonded It's an attachment that none of us wanted It happened I

I felt like a leaf which fell down the tree and the tree didn't recognise it as its own part,  I felt like the drop of rain that once fell on your forehead and travelled down your chin and fell on ground  I was there, just there!  I was about to touch you with my charm But way to your heart wasn't through stomach I felt like a burnt bread  No one wants to give me a try A beatless vein  I am there but never fine  A skin that's peeling but looks scary A watch that was tic tocking but now waiting  Waiting for the one sight of yours  The one you once passed to me through the crowd  do you have the head count?  I want to know was it easy for you?! Since I felt like plastic  Thrown, dragged, stretched but not broken or torn  It hurts but trust me I've been strong  Did you turn back and had a look at the foot prints I left for you to trace me back?  Or at the chalk marks I made for you to remember the times when we were into each other

Not everyone is lucky to have their first boss like the one I had. From tomorrow I begin a new journey but for this I am leaving a friend and a mentor behind. Only physically though! So, here is a small story about my 1.5 years journey with Mrs.Kiran Chopra, my boss 😘 I was in a womb  Not knowing how the world would be, Not knowing where I deserve to be, scared enough with everything I imagined to be around, Not familiar with how harsh will life feel and sound, But then I had to be born.  I came into this world  And you sculpted me like you sculpt the clay, Patted me to get me into shape  Moulded me to look great,  Pampered me since you knew how to handle me with nothing but care,  And I stood in front of you completely bare.  You understood the words unsaid,  You saw me in pain and suffered in your own self,  You smiled and spread the smile around,  You made us a family, United and strong.  Your sorrows traveled through us  Your absence ate