Naam Me Kya Rakha Hai?

I felt like a leaf which fell down the tree and the tree didn't recognise it as its own part,  I felt like the drop of rain that once fell on your forehead and travelled down your chin and fell on ground  I was there, just there!  I was about to touch you with my charm But way to your heart wasn't through stomach I felt like a burnt bread  No one wants to give me a try A beatless vein  I am there but never fine  A skin that's peeling but looks scary A watch that was tic tocking but now waiting  Waiting for the one sight of yours  The one you once passed to me through the crowd  do you have the head count?  I want to know was it easy for you?! Since I felt like plastic  Thrown, dragged, stretched but not broken or torn  It hurts but trust me I've been strong  Did you turn back and had a look at the foot prints I left for you to trace me back?  Or at the chalk marks I made for yo...

Not everyone is lucky to have their first boss like the one I had. From tomorrow I begin a new journey but for this I am leaving a friend and a mentor behind. Only physically though! So, here is a small story about my 1.5 years journey with Mrs.Kiran Chopra, my boss 😘 I was in a womb  Not knowing how the world would be, Not knowing where I deserve to be, scared enough with everything I imagined to be around, Not familiar with how harsh will life feel and sound, But then I had to be born.  I came into this world  And you sculpted me like you sculpt the clay, Patted me to get me into shape  Moulded me to look great,  Pampered me since you knew how to handle me with nothing but care,  And I stood in front of you completely bare.  You understood the words unsaid,  You saw me in pain and suffered in your own self,  You smiled and spread the smile around,  You made us a family, United and strong.  ...

The sight Feelings  Emotions Words  Touch Love  Not so much  Was there but Became vapours  In just A fight  You changed  Your sight  Now I  Stand alone  Here waiting  For you  But your gone  And what I  Feel See And say  It's all different.  The moments we share A little bit of care  A shoes pair  A luggage and  despair  You packed  And took  And I brushed them  Under the  Carpet of room  Look,  I know  It wasn't working  But a chance,  You should've  Seen it  Lurking  Well,  Bumps  Grumps  And other things  Weren't common  For us it seems  But it's at the door  Our relationship Us Breaking  Sulking  But moving  It was an end  We didn't design  It's all differe...

Forgive me  For I saw you  In a light you never wanted to be in  Forgive me  For the trust I had put into you  For every smile that I thought was unique to me  For every word I thought you've spoken from heart  For every promise I imagined you have made  For every time my heart broke without any fault of yours  Forgive me For I saw love in your eyes  For the words I thought were true that you whispered in my ears  For the umpteen times I apologised for expecting your time.  For I could never hear anything else but your voice.  For without your permission I made you my choice.  Forgive me  Because I broke my promise to not fall  For you never wanted my heart  You never wanted anything serious  Forgive me for reading something that wasn't there  Forgive me for putting an unintentional stress on you  Forgive me to express how much I liked y...

I am not supposed to disclose, I have to keep quite  I have to die in the four walls of my heart  And keep the secret imbibed.  I am not supposed to disclose For it might raise fingers on me  It might make him suffer  and break my 'happy' dream. I am not supposed to disclose  The anger, frustration, hurt, pain, love, laughter and all those feelings insane, I don't want to be part of this blame-game zone I've to carry it till my grave.  I am not supposed to disclose  Even if I have sleepless nights  For if I disclose, I would be judged of Being a prostitute or an unfaithful wife. I am not supposed to disclose  I have a family to look for,  I have a kid to inspire, I have an entire life to live with my head held high.  I am not supposed to disclose  It's a secret growing in me  It's a secret that suffocates  That takes away the real me I am not suppos...

He wooed me  He caressed He loved me  Like no one else. He weaved a web  To make me prey  In which I fell With no disgrace. We made creases  On bed  And our silhouettes made love on the wall, All night all day, No time no break, We were into each other  With no sense of the world.  I got used to it He was moving away  Experiments weren't working  Well, I wasn't a professional anyway.  Just 3 months and it was going to an end, A relation that started fast  Was walking too soon towards the grave.  I thought it was a road to soul, My journey with him was ending on the bed. No memories, No talks, Just a passion  To make love like insane.  Did we really made love?  I asked myself! He moved on  Saying just three words that "It won't work" The Words that I never wanted to hear  But I knew they were about to come, I realised,  ...

We cross a bridge  We stop on red lights  We step on each other  We step by each other sides  One thing leads to another  And we feel something special.  Lost in oblivion is the past  Working towards something we weren't aware of.  Highs and lows  Pits and other hurdles  We past through all,  But what is it?  Love?  We stand for each other  Fight together, sometimes against too Feel jealous but never commit  Agree that there is a magic and a call to take, But what is it? Love?  You and I,  Don't need to rush. I understand  You do too,  Let the flowers bloom a little more  Let the feeling cook a little more  Let the adrenaline rush not take over  Let the Cupid shove their arrows more into our core.  We've been through something like this before,  I know.  It's hard for you to take a first step, ...