Naam Me Kya Rakha Hai?

Little fingers, small palm little pony and little back-pack  White dress, blue belt, black shoes.  Everything has become a phase of time, I am a grown up adult now Forgotten everything about my childhood  But stuck at a point I revisit in the morning every day when I look at this small girl  Small feet with tidy shoes on, walks out of the house, Dressed in white, blue belt,  and yeah, a little back-pack.  Calls her dad to drop her school and here comes a man with specs, wearing a polo shirt and track pants, holds her hand and walks with her till a point where comes the school van.  It's not just a walk,  It's a moment of emotion, A moment where she could spit everything and he patiently hears it all. A moment of love, a relationship which wasn't hazy.  5 days of the week, I look at them, smile and leave for my work.  Every Saturday I imagine how their life would be:  The little one wakes up...

Khata hi dua hai ki khafa Tum na ho na  Ki manzile dushman se bhari hongi  Adaye tumhari nazaakat se dikhana ki banduke phool barsayenge  Zara unhe bhi pata ho ki mere yaar ki nazar ka Kya hai Woh nasha joh mujhpe hai Zara payal chankao ki kabr se bhi murde haazir honge humare ishq ko bachane ko  Ye dushman Kya karpayegein jab mere yaar ke teere nazar hi dilo pe vaar krjayenge  Talwaar uthayenge toh zulfein lehra dena  Ghataye chaakr toofan le aayengii  Andhere me na wo tujhe na Mujhe Dekh payenge  Mere pyar ke haatho Woh pyar se marjayenge  Alag ho bhi gaye agar hum, Toh wafayein Meri yaad rakhna  Anguthi tere ungli pe joh hai usse tassali se pyar krna  Wo pyar mere dil tak pohuch hi jayegi  Na fikr kar tu Meri Mujhe apne paas hi paayegi  Hawa bankr aaunga choomne tere labo ko  Mera pyar iss zamaane Ya umr ka mohtaaz nahi

Do you know how it is to be felt unwanted while being naked next to you? Your hands move but your soul doesn't Your eyes meet mine but they don't makes love  Our body touches and what happens in my body nothing of such sorts happen to you  It's only me who is making love to you I have been naked always for you    Told you thousand stories  And a lie that it doesn't matter if you go  But it does and it's the most difficult step I have taken.  It's nothing like the breakups I have had before,  It's not the relationship but me who broke.  No one has fallen for me  Sadly even you didn't  I experienced the pain love gives  But love? I don't have it.   You shook my soul  And toured it to hell and heaven  Now brought me back to dark space  Which has nothing  but only your sense over my sense  Your breath in mine  Your thoughts all over my mind  Yo...

I never failed to have hope on you,  Even when you closed that door on me. I never failed to trust you, Even when you said we are not meant to be. I never broke even when my heart felt like it won't beat again  I never cursed because I knew I was the one to be blamed  You were not ready, I wasn't too I know it wasn't easy, I walked a little farther than you did My imaginations took a flight  Pressured you, unintentionally to feel the way I did  But I never knew I was doing this  you knew it all, still you took the risk.  You walked closer,  Closer to my heart  You held my breath and a chemistry happen to start  I never told you that you gave me love like no one else could  Never told you in little things you did, I found a world  My bubble became a happy place to live in But you didn't believe. Things drifted towards the end slowly, I still lived there where you left me ...

Make my thoughts blank for a while Kiss me like its end of life Close the doors and hug me tight Let the dark take over, turn off the light. Don't stay away, Don't be so shy See me glowing in your arms Kiss me till end of my life Get uncovered, throw your shield Look into my eyes, believe in me Let me touch you, you touch me Keep your eyes stuck on me Touch me, for I want to feel What's it's like when you make love to me It hurts to see you so close but so far I am desperate for you, a state that's sweet and sour How can you see me in such a plight Kiss me like its end of life Enough of being away, Your touch burns my blood A current passes through veins Let's warm that bed Let's create creases And a story to tell I am breaking in your arms, how can you not shudder Just wanting a touch of your lips on mine Kiss me like its end of my life I feel helpless and bonded It's an attachment that none of us wanted It happened I ...